Throwback : Hati @ Eid Fitr 2014

Aidil Fitri dh lama berlalu. Aidil Adha pun. Raya korban thn ni tak de gmbr family. Lgpun, si Mimin warded di Tropicana Hospital. Aisehmen Mimin, raya2 awak duduk hospital pulak.

Tak de gambar, mcm x de kenangan. Sian MAHAN. Tak pe, Ummi ganti dgn cerita Aidil Fitri kita, boleh? Tapi... ohh... Aidil Fitri kita tahun ni pun x de warna kan....?

Memori : Few days before 1 Syawal lalu...

U : Pa... Ummi teringat kat Abah... sedih sgt...
P : Zikir, selawat... infaqkan utk Abah dan anak2 kita...
U : Ummi dah tak de abah...
U : Ummi dah tak de kampung halaman...
U : Ummi dah tak de byk saudara...
U : Ummi mcm tak de hati nak sambut raya tahun ni...
P : Me too...
P : Rasa mcm nak sambut raya di hospital...

Hospital n hidup sy sgt sinonim. Ibarat sweet escapism bila dlm persimpangan dilema. 

MAHAN x sihat few weeks sblm 1 Syawal tu. Tp dia berkorban n bertahan utk beri sy ruang bantu kelancaran tugas2 di jabatan dlm waktu handicapped. It was either 'berkorban' @ mgkn jg ia sesuatu yg sgt reconcile dgn sweet escapism kami... hmm....

MAHAN warded in DEMC on Friday for d'1st time, 2 days b4  1 Syawal. His left lung needed treatment.

Agaknya mesti MAHAN sdg fikir 'aku kena raya kat sini ke?' hu hu...

Babang n Didik had gone through this many times in their age.

I could see their faces of love n sympathy for their youngest kin.

We had our family break fasting in d room... 3 days in d row.

Obviously, slps ambil antibiotik n few other meds plus 2 hourly neb on the days, MAHAN kembali sihat. He slept very sound.  Alhamdulillah. 

MAHAN should spend another day in d ward. Yet, looking at Papa's gloomy face, MAHAN discharged mlm raya. Rwtn sambung di umah. Haru biru jiwa. Nak raya, ke tak...?  Slm ni suka je bila nk raya. Tp ini thn ulung, hati hlg bila nk raya. Acane?  

"Hati yg terluka umpama besi yg bengkok. 
Walau diketuk, sukar kembali ke bentuk asalnya..."

Sy manusia biasa yg hy tau ulit nombor n abjad. Bkn bar-bender. Hati ni di tgn DIA. Tutup n buka atas kehendak-NYA. Btpapun sy mohon, andai msh blm terbuka, skrip Hindustan kata 'dil kiya kare...?'. 

Notes to remember 111014: TQVM krn memudahkan penetapan pendirian sy. Now I know why I must always stick to my stand. Dear HEART, sorry ya for all the DAMAGES. N my dear BRAIN, YOU WERE RIGHT. Always right. Now, my heart finally told me 'enough is enough'. So RAN, learn your lesson n move on!