Janganlah pijak baby tu!

I guess dh dkt 2-3 bln sy rasakannya. Mula2 terfikir adakah krn I long for a gegurl, hga hormon keibuan sy rise? Bila the throbbing msh trs, terdetik... is it got to do with the one we call cancer simptom? My imagination is too much! The only person utk ditanyakan wajiblah my other half. He said, "No. Nothing's there. You are over-imagining la.... jgn minta dan fikir yg bukan-bukan la syg..."

Okay, fine. May be I worry and imagine too much. Alhamdulillah, it might not be that. Tapi, lama2 rs denyutannya smkn obvious. And of course it scares me sometime. I feel it. Denyut yg sama spt waktu mula ada Babang n Didik dl. Rs spt producing milk, something like that. Tp... I am no longer BF my boys. Didik dh 4 years old... Babang dh sekolah... and the gegurl entah kat dunia mn lg. Not sure also her chances to see Ummi n Papa. What is it then?

Latest appointment with Dr Rahman last mth end, for certain curiosity n concern about my own self, walau trs mcm malu, terpaksa tanya juga...

D : When was your last p?

R : Last 2 weeks.

D : Regularly?

R : Yes.

So, I guess he's convinced that I am free from pregnancy. My latest overall blood test pun pd dia.

D : Bila hormon thyroid tinggi, sometimes you akan rasa begitu.

R : Oooh, means, nothing to do with other thing?

D : Supposedly no...

R : (Alhamdulillah...)

Dr Rahman explained on the T3, T4 n T sgl serta kaitannya dgn rs denyut itu. But as usual, I couldn't understand. Does not matter, as long as it is just something to do with my thyroid, it's ok... jgn yg lain sudahlah... Cuma, Dr Rahman pesan jika msh berterusan n jika ada susu yg keluar walau sedikit, I have to alert him. Doctor will prescribe me with some medication. Ubat lagi? Aduhai...

Tgh hr td ada kenduri doa selamat di rumah jiran next door. Walaupun saya sakit kepala dah 2-3 hari n rs mcm loya tekak, cuba bantu jg setakat terdaya. Lps tlg celur fish ball, fish cake n sayur, sy lari balik sbb nk muntah sgt...

Ops, pic above is Didik curi cium baby gegurl ms sdg baca Yassin, anak buah tuan rumah kot... hu hu... lately fasa provok keinginan Didik n Babang utk baby gegurl. Sllnya mrk geleng kpl. Dan kalau sy reserve anything, said it's for gegurl, they would say, "Alah... baby gegurl kan blm keluar lagi..." Hu hu...

U : Dik, tengok tu comel kan baby gegurl tu?
D : (Tersipu-sipu bila gegurl tu senyum n ketawa pd dia)
D : Ahah la Mi, cantik gegurl tu...
U : Didik pi cak dia...
D : Janganlah pijak baby gegurl tu Mi... sakitlah dia!
U : Erk!? (Did I said anything about PIJAK?)
U : Bukan pijak lah Dik, matilah anak orang... 
U : PI CHAK dia! (Main cak-cak tu lah...) 

Hish... Didik...