Between Life and Love...

Ada seorang kawan... yang paling rapat... ke mana pergi bersama. Tiga bulan lalu doktor klinik panel minta dia immediately stop taking medicine selepas analisa ringkas ujian darah. Soon after that she was ill every day. Latest visit to clinic, GP referred her to specialist.

As usual when this friend of mine meet specialist, her condition must be at the utmost worst. She has swollen and weak heart now. Her T3 and T4 burst to maximum level till the meter reading in hospital could not read.

"You've got to be admitted!" urge the doctor.

"Err... please no..."

"Why?"

"Err... I have something to do first. Can I be admitted later?"

Doctor pun dah tak reti nak cakap apa. As usual this patient will always refuse to be admitted until she was at the border of life and death. She showed a paper and said, "Then you sign it here..."

"What's this doc?"

"An acknoledgement that you won't held us responsible shall anything happen for this admission refusal."

Gulp!

That evening she met another doctor. Her friend actually. Need to have second opinion. The conversation goes...

"Doctor would not admit patient for no reason. You are much more than worse, you've got to be admitted."

"Can I be admitted this November end? I have applied for a long leave..."

"I am so frustrated... this is not the time for you to deny this fact nor for you to surrender. You must fight!"

"I do understand doc... I am not denying anymore... neither do I surrendering. But I have so many limitations now."

"If you are not in good condition, you are no use to anybody... please go for admission. If you are not doing this for yourself, please do it for your kids... promise me you will go..."

How can everybody said that she is not fighting. If she wasn't fighting, she won't be able to breath now... in silent she is fighting for her life. As the doctor once told, if it wasn't her, other people would have been collapsed with that level of hormon and sickness she carried.

She cant't afford to stay away from those she loves, especially not at this very moment - husband, kids, house, office, paper works, meetings, IBG, manuscript, TV, hobbies, hari raya, balik kampung, MONEY especially!

Can she be better while waiting for November end?

What choice does she has now...?